Letting go of the ego is the hardest part.

Today, 4 years ago was the last day of freedom for the world for a bit. Just after the world shut down and after briefly considering a career change into respiratory therapy, I discovered Soma Breath. With plenty of time on my hands and determined to come out on the other side with a better versions of myself, I dove in and haven’t stopped exploring. Over the past five years I have been introduced to the power of my breath. Our internal source of light and energy that is stifled by pollution of every day life, social circles, social media, entertainment, programming, advertising….and on and on. Learning to tap into that internal power source and ultimately connect to the power within that IS infinitely connected to the entire universe…is empowering. I am just beginning to harness the power of my God-given life force. How we harness and orchestrate it, is all up to us. My goal these days is to remain connected to this internal source and reconnect anytime I feel myself stray. I am human….so I will. But this….SPACE…is BEAUTIFUL. I can’t describe in words, and I don’t think ANYONE could ever speak to the beauty, because it’s ultimately a feeling, a state of being….that you have to experience yourself. And Everyone is equipped with this internal source, we just have to be reawakened and reminded. Once you are there is no going back.

I just spent the past four weeks and got to be coached as a client through our program by one of my fellow Soma Breathwork Transformational Coaches (currently in the same certification process I am) I can’t express how much light and love I have . I have energy and I am in a net-postive flow at work and getting hit up with new interest in yoga and breathwork.

And I just participated in another powerful breathwork meditation with one of our instructors who, admittedly, I haven’t been a hugely drawn to, but I also realize there is always something to learn or gain in different experiences. I was guided to a place of acknowledgment of all that I have overcome, some complicated situations in my life and feel pretty much healed. But I also realize I still hang onto the insecurities of being judged. I’m pretty good at over-riding, but it definitely plays in my head. I was further guided to embrace courage and helped me release (had a really good cry) stagnant negativity (and I’m sure there is more) and felt major release in my body.

In my healing journey, I have been mocked over the years (in a friendly way – but non-the-less effective at disturbing my confidence) for my holistic ~ or in some eyes “woo woo” practices. Ironically, the same people who mimic….now 5 years later are now asking for quidance and advice. Now touting my practices and knowledge. And I LOVE it. THIS is what I live for. Spreading light, health and happiness! and deep down I knew this day would come, but actually going through the process was trying. During this meditation, I went back to my childhood, teen years, and young adult life and realize I always felt like I was trying to be liked, and to be accepted and often “conforming” to whatever made me feel like I was fitting in.

Now, I realize I am most comfortable with myself, with my pets, in nature with my music. Of course I LOVE my family, my friends, my social outings…..but I need solitude for selfcare to recharge my energy. I’m also realizing I am tapped into empathetic vibrations and I feel what others feel….sometimes to the point of tears. But its real…and it’s draining. Additionally, my full-time job as a skin therapist seeing on average 6 brand new clients a day. That’s 6 new souls every day that all have their own stories, energy and paths they are on. So recharging myself regularly is absolutely necessary.

Being comfortable with myself and learning to accept and love myself has empowered me. My goals in this coming year are to continue to deepen my healing and spiritual connection and to help others rediscover their innate power and discover their highest potentials. My purpose in this life, is to help you discover and harness the source of your own internal life force, and ultimately design the tapestry of your life. Are you ready for the journey?? Feel free to reach out!

Namaste, Cindy