I struggled with the decision to actually post this piece or not, in fear of hurting or offending someone (anyone). But, on this Veterans Day, in respect and as a tribute those that have sacrificed for our freedoms, and because I have been working on expressing myself more freely, and because it is 11/11…..here it is.

We’re just a week out from this last election and I really don’t know how I feel, other than conflicted. I have two other pieces I started a while back for two different people in my life….after discussions about this upcoming election. Both on opposite sides. And myself, smack dab in the middle. Literally. I just changed my political party preference last year to Independent, after being a life-long (inherited) Republican. There were years I didn’t even vote. I never really felt like I made a difference. That feeling has ridden the same wave that the red/blue political wave rides.

This election was contentious, to say the least. Although, I feel it’s almost par for the course of where we are in the evolution of our country, and even more so humanity. All civilizations throughout history rise and fall, a whole other subject……I am just pleased (relieved) that there have been no “up-risals/rioting/protesting”, although the dark part of my mind wonders why they’ve conceded so graciously….and what kinds of nefarious plans are being contemplated. They’ve already foiled one assassination plot by one of the other global powers. Creative imagination? Or too much history?

The personal concern I have now, is how my friends and family are feeling with the outcome. I know some who were Trump supporters that are awfully mouthy and gloating, a little too much for my taste. A couple who even went so far as to make fun or disparage the other side. And its interesting….it’s always the ones who claim Christianity, the one always preaching Jesus….and then acting a fool. What WOULD Jesus do…you hypocrite.

I worry about those who are feeling the loss. And what frightens me the most, or I suppose makes me the most sad, is the amount of energy and despair they are feeling. Much of that I blame on the constant battery and fear mongering that has gone on, which is nothing new, but unfortunately, has affected many that I love. There have been many documented scenarios of mass hysteria, and human psychology has studied this, in depth. It’s a fascinating and scary subject.

What I want to share about my feelings with the result is this: I feel safer with a feared individual (yes, as rank as he is ) – because she is too “nice” (IMO) to be in charge of the greatest superpower in the world, only because of the other global powers our nation deals with daily will “respect” or maybe at least fear, the unpredictable asshole rather than a joyful woman. I was told that is misogynistic opinion, but the fact is, most of these other “power” countries, are being run by misogynistic, unevolved, power hungry, men. We (us peons) are not going to have any dealings with that power (I pray to GOD). I’m choosing to view Trump as the shield between them and US. Just a “shield” for America.

On a lighter and more optimistic point, some of the people that have followed him from the side of the defeated, including the person for whom I chose to become an independent and a brilliant woman who spent eight years in Congress and served two different deployments with the Army are now a part of the new administration. They are completely dedicated to unity and improving the health and wellness of all American citizens and especially our Veterans. I hope that with the right support, these two can help shape the future landscape. I am optimistic and excited for the challenges being made to our healthcare system, pharmaceuticals and food industries. MY passions for the past 10+ years. I’m excited and optimistic for help for our veterans and getting our cities and inner cities the help and aid we’ve been giving to the rest of the world. Most of all, I’m excited for no new wars.

To keep my peace, I am choosing to focus on what matters to me and helping where I can help, and make a difference where I can. I hope that this can inspire others to do the same. Don’t gloat. Please don’t get consumed by the darkness. Please find a friend, or a purpose and spend your gifts there. Be the light in the never ending eb and flow, yin and yang, dark of life.

Thank you to all the Veterans and Namaste

Cindy